61 days ago I started on this epic journey. I'd prayed and asked God to help me find the best step for me. The best way to kick start this new me He wanted me to become. So I fasted.
I drank fresh fruit and vegetable juice for 60 days. Insanity. It was so hard and I was not entirely faithful. Several times I ate food and felt terrible (not just physically) and would repent and do well for many more days.
It was a constant struggle for me p give up this area in my life. I've always struggled with my weight, and more specifically my eating habits, as far back as I can remember.
It's not all my parents fault or my fault or anyone in particular, it's a culmination of the way I had allowed myself to live. I used food as a boredom breaker, a social activity, a heart healer, an excuse. I cannot tell you how much I HATE the term "comfort food." It is quite possibly the worst way I look at food ever.
But that Stephanie is no more. I come out of this fast, not 100% healed of every negative outlook on food and health. I do come out stronger. I have the tools and the strength to fight off the wrong views on food.
I come away from this experience with the wisdom that I am not enough. There is not enough strength in my body or mind or spirit that can fight this way of life hard enough. And that's okay! I don't have to fight alone.
God is my strength. He is my savior and He is my guide through life. I have much yet I learn, I know this. I also know He is teaching me daily.
Showing me how to love Him, how to depend on Him and how to e His warrior woman He's created me to be.
I'm 41 pounds lighter. As my cousin would say, I didn't loose it- I got rid of it. Those pounds are gone and will be followed shortly by several more.
I am excited about where He is taking me and the changes He's made in my life. I am ready to continue this journey and up for the challenge!
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